I'm so stressed nowadays lol. I have CT test this Saturday, Sociology mid-term on Tuesday and Maths test next Saturday. ALL of which I still haven't studied for.


Not to mention designs assignment 1 and the practicals I have to finish by Thursday.. so yeah I basically have no life. Factor in the time taken to commute back home, I REALLY HAVE NO TIME. UNLESS I DON'T SLEEP. But I have to sleep or I'll be the crankiest person ever.

My friends are almost all Chinese speakers lol. My English is becoming more cacat now, so I think I have to campur the bananas everyday for a while to get my language in check. I have never been so bad in speaking before.

And everytime someone asks me about designs assignment my heart literally drops and I start to get stressed all over again. My other friends who don't take designs are busy studying for the tests I don't have time to study for. And they're all super gan jeong and say I'm smart so I won't understand


They all think I'm smart lol just because I understood the feminist theory. And I don't wanna tell them the only reason why I understand sociology is because it's in flipping English cos that will sound pompous. But really, I'm not smart. I just look smart and sound smart but my brain doesn't work right. The only reason why Sociology is still OK is because you don't have to memorize terms in class. My memory is about as thin as my wallet lol I JUST GET IT COS I GET ENGLISH.

Everyone even got higher marks than me in Maths and they still insist I'm smart lol. I feel so stressed.

Right so I have this designs practical I'm supposed to hand in next week. We have four stuff to work on and I'm not even halfway done yet.

The first piece is about exploring marks. While she was explaining, I was like, isn't everything a mark!? Argh and we have focal point photos to take and I'm a horrible photographer. One of my classmates takes photos like the flipping Popular page from Instagram. My self esteem...
Shape exploration sounds easy enough, but it's so time consuming! I don't know how I'm supposed to manage to hand it in on Thursday :/ argh

And I can't find anything on Helen Ebaugh's role exit theory in Google that doesn't require me to pay :( I have a group meeting tomorrow and I haven't found anything. I suck.

My Mom finally decided to go back to Mentakab yesterday lol she went to her lunch meeting at KLCC and then we were off to my Mom's hometown to pray for the tian gong

The second we reached, I was pulled into the kitchen to help out with arranging the DIY vegetarian (ish) yee sang. My aunt and the maids were busy chopping fruits and vegetables and frying the chicken. My aunt was so frazzled she snapped at anyone who went in her way LOL her husband stayed away from the kitchen, for obvious reasons.

It may sound easy but it's not lol not when its for guests, that is. We had to make 5 huge-ass plates too. And the stuff were all white-ish and greenish and the only ones with color were the carrots, the pineapple and the jambu merah. 

my brother can be so annoying sometimes -.- he's so bloody stubborn like a 60 year old uncle

he keeps saying OUR moods make him moody all day long like wtf?! Does he expect us to be happy just so he can be happy? Why doesn't he shut his crap and find something solid that will make him happy? He's so emotional and sensitive omg I'M THE GIRL HERE. YOU DON'T SEE ME TELLING THE WORLD THAT THEY BRING ME DOWN.

Then he starts complaining about how if you don't have money you won't have friends.

Guys, do not send your kids to private schools unless your salary is 10 times over the fee structure of private schools. What you'll get is a socially awkward kid okay my brothers are very socially awkward and then they blame everyone else for not wanting to talk to them when they don't even approach people.

Send your kids to a public school that has no criminal record! It's perfectly fine and your kid will be more street smart, which will eventually be better in the real world anyway. SEE? KILL TWO BIRDS WITH ONE STONE. 

The worst thing is he doesn't realise he hurts his mother when he starts saying how "depressed" he is and how "him just killing himself won't effect the world" like -.- dude please grow some common sense or something

How can someone be such a self proclaimed introvert AND BE SO FUCKING EXPRESSIVE ABOUT HIS "DEPRESSED" THOUGHTS.

He needs to find some friends that will teach him how to talk to people and what to talk about. He keeps complaining about how selfish people are who don't like listening to him -.- it's like as if he likes listening to people talk about their own personal shit. HE COMPLAINS ABOUT IT EVERY DAY!

I really hope God gives him a freaking sign that he isn't going to progress a lot in life if he keeps that fucked up mindset of his.

We were talking about my Mom rolling off the bed and killing the person sleeping underneath

Me: It'll never happen, ma can't sleep well she won't move
Brother: Please, you'll never know!
Dad: It won't happen.
Brother: How do you know?
Dad: Have you ever seen a paperweight fall off a table on its own?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURN.

I'm back from Chinese New Year ahhhhhhhhhhh just to find out this week is off at uni lol so I officially start next week. I hope I manage to catch up and make good, proper friends.

This year's CNY was quite peaceful since we didn't visit anyone lol so no waking up at dawn getting ready to go visit relatives I don't know. No wearing uncomfortable dresses around pervy cousin and uncle. Less ang pow la, but it's not like I get to keep them anyway haha

Yes, I am 17 years old and I do not keep all of my ang pows. It's perfectly OK. I tell my mom to use it for life insurance hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahapleaseweallknowwherethemoneygoes

but my grandma is generous so hohoho. I mean the one still alive, not the one that just passed away lol gek sei yan meh

I started this post with full gusto now I just feel lazy it's so hot uuuuurgghhhh