- I'm 20 ;__;
- It doesn't feel any different, except I have to get used to telling people I'm 20 now
- Ugh ugh ugh ugh
- I don't want to grow up I don't want to get a job I don't want to leave this comfortable lifestyle to one that's a constant battle between taxes and horrible bosses
- I don't want to stop taking naps in the afternoon
- but I can't cos semester 2 starts in two weeks
- TWO WEEKS.
- Next sem's site is in Cameron Highlands whoop whoop
- STRAWBERRIES
- I'm still young at heart.
- Ugh ugh ugh ugh
To the people who comment on the way I look:
To the people who tell me I should do this and that because ~it'll be fun~:
I'll tell you what you should do, how about y'all fuck off and dictate your own life and stop worrying about mine.
I can motherfucking wear a pair of shoes if I like it and you all can fuck off about it
You can stop telling me that I grew a pimple or my lips are chapped because surprise surprise I own mirrors I already know
It's like as if you're all perfect!???!?!?!?
DO YOU HEAR ME TELL YOU YOU LOOK LIKE SHIT TODAY BECAUSE YOU DO
BUT I DON'T BECAUSE IT'S MOTHERFUCKING RUDE
AND MAYBE YOU JUST DIDN'T GET ENOUGH SLEEP
DO YOU HEAR ME TELL YOU YOU'RE FAT AND YOU SHOULD LOSE SOME WEIGHT
NO BECAUSE THAT'S MOTHERFUCKING RUDE
DO YOU HEAR ME TELL YOU YOUR HAIR LOOKS GREASY AF AND GO AWAY YOU STINK AND YOU'RE DIRTY!?
NO BECAUSE THAT'S MOTHERFUCKING RUDE.
so take a hint you little cunts and stop telling me how I should look and how I should act because guess what
ITS MY MOTHERFUCKING LIFE.
2. The day before I spent half the day sprinting between my drafting table, my laptop and the printing shop to print my presentation board before it closes
3. I managed to finish composing my board within two hours with the lovely help and input of my lovely tutor and lovely friends (lovely!)
4. My double A0 sized board costed me RM10. I printed two and ended up only using one because
I spent the entire night rendering one board
6. Meaning, I spent approximately 7-8 hours colouring a stupid lake and grass and that pink-purple thing (which got many, many, many weird looks and comments like "why pink" probably because architects don't do any colour that isn't a neutral)
7. I forgot to draw my section line but no one noticed so that's okay
8. I was the last presenter so I had to sit through four presentations before mine in a complete flurry of nerves and omgomgomgomg
9. They liked it so
7. A scan for one A0 board costs twice as much for my entire board where is the logic in that
8. KO-ed for ten hours once I got home
9. Woke up to shower and have a snack and KO-ed for another 8 hours
10. I appreciate all the people who've helped me and talked me out of my nerves in the making of this model and gave me tons of useful input of which 80% I've ignored because I just needed someone to rant to
11. Fun fact: I spent 12 hours trying to decide the best place to put my entrance
12. I'm not very happy with my roof because it caused a million of other problems for me, true to the saying "form follows panic"
13. I seem to be the only one who found "form follows panic" totally funny and relate-able, which makes me question my own sense of humor in relation to everyone else's.
14. Next semester in Studio 4 we will get my old drawing lecturer (yes!! and nooooo!!) and another lecturer who looks very hamsap, is very over-opinionated and doesn't button up his shirt properly. Ugh.
I write this before I begin (ugh) my report assignments (why are there so many?!?)
I've been the de facto group editor ever since group report assignments existed. I'm only ever not the group editor when (a) there's someone better and more of a control freak than I thank god, or (b) I lack the knowledge and expertise on said area.
People seem to think I actually enjoy editing??? I DON'T. I HATE IT. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. But I can't not be editor because I've been let down one too many times, by people who simply are too lazy and can't be bothered to read everything and just copy paste everything into one document. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.
I've been the de facto group editor ever since group report assignments existed. I'm only ever not the group editor when (a) there's someone better and more of a control freak than I thank god, or (b) I lack the knowledge and expertise on said area.
People seem to think I actually enjoy editing??? I DON'T. I HATE IT. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. But I can't not be editor because I've been let down one too many times, by people who simply are too lazy and can't be bothered to read everything and just copy paste everything into one document. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.
I especially hate to edit when I have a shit-ton of things to do
I especially hate to edit when there are people in my group who aren't good in English, and so their reports will either be (a) a perfectly constructed sentence they obviously copied from somewhere amidst a jumble of horribly written broken English, or (b) a jumble of horribly cut-and-paste sentences.
Disclaimer: I hate editing, but it doesn't make me hate the people. It just makes me very angry with them for a few days BECAUSE GDI IT'S NOT YOUR FIRST TIME WRITING REPORTS RIGHT. I'M SURE YOU'VE WRITTEN ESSAYS BEFORE. MY PRIMARY SCHOOL ESSAYS ARE MORE WELL-WRITTEN THAN THE SHIT YOU GIVE ME.
I mean, I understand that not everybody was brought up in an English speaking environment, but that doesn't mean you're excused from sucking with both speaking and writing!!! CHINESE AND MALAY MAY NOT BE MY STRONGEST SUITS BUT OH MY GOD I CAN STILL WRITE SENTENCES THAT MAKE SENSE.
For the purpose of ranting, I present to you all the pros and cons of being the group editor. Cons comes first, naturally.
CONS OF BEING GROUP EDITOR:
- People seem to forget that you too, have a lot of other assignments to attend to. So sometimes you get disgusting excuses from them that they were too busy doing some other assignment. Bitch, like I'm so free right
It's the same thing with being the person who writes the notes on the board when the teacher is absent/lazy and you have to submit said notes on the same day as well. And no one remembers that you basically wasted half the period writing for other people. - Some people are nocturnal and only start to work in the late evenings, and tend to send you their parts at 4 fucking am, even after you specifically asked for it before 12am
- People think your brain functions 100% 24/7, and they just have to push a laptop to your face and you'll make wonders happen.
- When you're not the group editor, and you see the final report someone else has compiled..................................... god.
- Some people only make sense in their mind, and only 10% of their parts make sense to you. So you spend more time deciphering what the fuck they mean.
- Attitude problems. God. People think you have all the time in the world, or editing takes 10 minutes only (these are the people who only copy paste everything into one file with confidence that you've done well, just because). So when you send the file back, they send you their same horrible part with an attitude attached.
- When citing references is compulsary, and some ass-wipes can't be bothered to find out how to cite properly. And they're also ~too lazy~ to redo when you send it back. You fucking cunts.
- PEOPLE WHO DON'T READ THE FUCKING ASSIGNMENT BRIEF AND SEND YOU SOMETHING OFF-TOPIC. READ. THE. FUCKING. BRIEF. PLEASE.
PROS OF BEING GROUP EDITOR
- When an individual assignment comes rolling by, your plagiarism percentage stays low from all the practice paraphrasing.
As you can see, I'm not a very nice person when I have to edit reports. I become a very angry beast so please don't talk to me.
I have a lot of things to get off my chest.
- People who just aren't there when you feel shitty are the people you don't really need in your life. Unfortunately, most of the time these are the same people you have the most fun around with. But god, when I feel down in the dumps I won't go near these people.
- That being said, I'm thankful to have friends who tried to make me see the light
- I was so done with my studio master, but this time I'm really slowly starting to get irritated with my tutor, and for various reasons.
We always complain about how the studio master is really restrictive and only truly accepts the forms he likes, and the tutor always makes fun about how we ~*prostitute*~ ourselves to fit into his ideals, BUT HE DOES THE SAME GOD DAMN THING. All he likes are understated things and ~*flat roofs*~ and he keeps reinstating his own reinterpretation and sorry lah if you don't understand him the first time he's gonna blow a gasket and starts going all "I'm starting to get irritated" -_- god sorry lah I don't get you and omg he keeps jumping into conclusions and EVERYONE WHO CONSULTS HIM ENDS UP WITH THE SAME COMMENTS AND THE SAME SUGGESTIONS SO WHAT IS THE BLOODY DIFFERENCE. At the end of the day, the studio would just be filled with two different styles.
And he knows we're struggling to keep up with our studio master's stupid ideals but does he do anything to help us?? NOOOOOO. He just keeps laughing at us and getting irritated and swearing BUT DOES THAT HELP!??!?!?! DOES IT?!?!?!?!? - Stupid architects, who think they know everything.
- Like, isn't my interpretation important in my design?!?!?! WHY WON'T ANYONE LISTEN TO WHAT WE HAVE TO SAY!??!! THEY JUST SIT DOWN AND TELL YOU WHAT THEY WOULD DO AND BLAH BLAH BLAH
- "You're not listening!!!" -__- I am. BUT ARE YOU!?!??!
- Maybe I'm just feeling emotional because I got my first bad crit from him last Friday but god it's just over a stupid curved roof. He says it's too massive like HELLO HAVE YOU SEEN MY PEERS?!?!?!! MINE PALES IN COMPARISON???? It's not even that high up!?!?!? IT'S JUST 5 BLOODY METRES??????? OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THEIRS 18M UP!!!!!!!
- Just because it's not a fucking flat roof doesn't make it a fucking bad design.
- And yeah, yeah, site context blahblahblah BUT IT'S A BLOODY DEAD TOWN. WE HAVE AN EXCUSE TO INTRODUCE SOMETHING CRAZY!!!
- -_-
"I know you have other subjects to do, and it's week 9 now which means a lot of submissions for you all, this is when the real Architorture will begin.
Don't forget that your studio design is 6 credit hours, so one grade change will make or break you"
*angrily asks why the studio is empty and assigns more bloody work*
Yes yes it's 6 credit hours BUT THE OTHER SUBJECTS AREN'T ZERO CREDIT HOURS WE NEED TO WORK ON THEM TOO YOU FREAK.
Don't forget that your studio design is 6 credit hours, so one grade change will make or break you"
*angrily asks why the studio is empty and assigns more bloody work*
Yes yes it's 6 credit hours BUT THE OTHER SUBJECTS AREN'T ZERO CREDIT HOURS WE NEED TO WORK ON THEM TOO YOU FREAK.
I can't say that I can't wait for this design studio to be over with because I don't even know if I'll pass or not. No, this isn't me being over-dramatic. This is some real shit right here where my marks are amongst the lowest in the entire class, where it was never in before and this scares me.
Because what if it's not the lecturer's problem, but me??? Maybe I'm just not creative enough for this industry to go beyond studio 3, maybe I'm not putting enough thought into it, maybe I'm just not meant for Architecture
My stress management is not helped by my design lecturer who enjoys popping into Whatsapp asking if ~*anyone's in studio*~ every single fucking day INCLUDING WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS like oh my god sir LET US BE FREE LET US BE FREE LET US BE FREEE
I can't do anything outside of campus without this lingering weight on my back asking me DID YOU FINISH THIS WHY ARE YOU SO FREE WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO WEEK14WEEK14WEEK14 OTHER SUBJECTS SITE VISITS GROUP ASSIGNMENTS EDITING MUSEUM OH SHIT NO RESEARCH WORK WEEK14WEEK14WEEK14
I'm not even safe at home anymore that's how bad it is.
I haven't had a good weekend in almost a month. Oh sure, I went to a concert. Whereby halfway through my lecturer decided to remind us (yet again) to get our site model done by Tuesday and to submit the sectional drawing by Monday (quality work expected!)
Oh and just ten minutes ago we get a message from our studiomate saying "we can start the building model now", which basically means "get it done by Tuesday too"
I CAN'T FUNCTION UNDER THIS UNCERTAINTY.
WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE MAKE UP HIS MIND ON A FLOW AND JUST FUCKING LET US KNOW BEFORE WE GO HOME WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE DO THAT
We're not even safe on Facebook where he's active as well.
I FEEL SO CONSTRICTED BY HIS PREDETERMINED SCHEDULE THAT I'M NOT FULLY AWARE OF YET.
But with all things holy and good please let me pass, please let me graduate with my studiomates JUST LET ME OUT OF THIS DAMN COURSE.
Because what if it's not the lecturer's problem, but me??? Maybe I'm just not creative enough for this industry to go beyond studio 3, maybe I'm not putting enough thought into it, maybe I'm just not meant for Architecture
My stress management is not helped by my design lecturer who enjoys popping into Whatsapp asking if ~*anyone's in studio*~ every single fucking day INCLUDING WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS like oh my god sir LET US BE FREE LET US BE FREE LET US BE FREEE
I can't do anything outside of campus without this lingering weight on my back asking me DID YOU FINISH THIS WHY ARE YOU SO FREE WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO WEEK14WEEK14WEEK14 OTHER SUBJECTS SITE VISITS GROUP ASSIGNMENTS EDITING MUSEUM OH SHIT NO RESEARCH WORK WEEK14WEEK14WEEK14
I'm not even safe at home anymore that's how bad it is.
I haven't had a good weekend in almost a month. Oh sure, I went to a concert. Whereby halfway through my lecturer decided to remind us (yet again) to get our site model done by Tuesday and to submit the sectional drawing by Monday (quality work expected!)
Oh and just ten minutes ago we get a message from our studiomate saying "we can start the building model now", which basically means "get it done by Tuesday too"
I CAN'T FUNCTION UNDER THIS UNCERTAINTY.
WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE MAKE UP HIS MIND ON A FLOW AND JUST FUCKING LET US KNOW BEFORE WE GO HOME WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE DO THAT
We're not even safe on Facebook where he's active as well.
I FEEL SO CONSTRICTED BY HIS PREDETERMINED SCHEDULE THAT I'M NOT FULLY AWARE OF YET.
But with all things holy and good please let me pass, please let me graduate with my studiomates JUST LET ME OUT OF THIS DAMN COURSE.