Why the hell are you guys making something so tiny jeopardize your friendship? Was it really worth it lol it wasn't even a big squabble! It was a minor misunderstanding that normal people will just make up and shrug it off but not you two. You two even drag other people in it, making people take sides.

Don't you guys miss each other? There's no way two people who used to be such good friends and have so something in common to not miss each other once in a while. Why don't you two just swallow your hugeass pride and just apologize already.

Put it behind you! No one even cares any more, but I do. There's always someone out there who fucking cares okay, stop being so self-centred.

Look at it for 2 seconds. Now look away.




Now look at it again.


It's like his eyes are telling you his fucking life story or something, I'm getting so much feels just by looking into those eyes. It's like all seaglass blue or some other fancy idiom for blue eyes.

This, is what I call a successful smoulder. I can't even handle this how can someone be so beautiful? This is what Adonis is all about! Look at how dark his hair is and how it looks against his pale pinky face. He's like a chiselled version of a newborn baby. Look at how his eyebrows touch the bridge of his nose. Look at how goddamn straight it is.

Seriously how can someone be so good looking. He's even more mesmerising to look at than Colton Haynes.



GASP, I KNOW. I SAID IT.


Look at him again!

Jeez. He better be bad at something lol no one can look this good and not be crap at something else! HE HAS TO. OTHERWISE IT'S NOT FAIR FOR THE REST OF THE WORLD.

jeeeeeeez.

1. UTAR CALLED ME YESTERDAY AND MY APPLICATION FINALLY GOT APPROVED. I JUST PAID MY FEES. I AM IN, BABY. But I'll be absent next week lololol and I have to go get a medical check up cos UTAR is weird. I suppose they want to ensure I'm good and healthy and not about to die soon to troll their management system. BUTWHOCARESIGOTIN.
   
2. Everyone loses weight during their college years..I have a feeling I will gain weight instead lol. Please don't let that happen to me ._.
   
3. I wanted to update my blog with something interesting but everything boring defines itself as happened this week so.. lol. My greatest accomplishment so far is finishing four books within one week.
   
4. Speaking of which, if any of you have the time to read that is, READ FANGIRL BY RAINBOW ROWELL. It's awesome. Go read it. If you're not swamped with homework I mean lol.
   

I have weird attachment issues with stuff, either that or I'm just a hoarder. I can't throw away stuff just like that I mean, WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH! If my house were big, I'll have a room just for the useless stuff that I'll keep just because I've been using it for so long.

It's either I don't throw anything or I throw a lot all at once. There's no middle ground.

Have you ever thought about things in a different point of perspective? Like, what if candy had feelings? What if they have personalities just waiting to be known. OH MY GOD WHAT IF THEIR FLAVOUR REFLECTS ON THEIR PERSONALITY.

Like, maybe the sour skittles are the misunderstood ones! They're all sour on the outside, but once that dissolves after time you taste the sweetness within! Maybe that's why it gets more and more desirable as we taste through all the sourness!

Or you know the exotic kind of chocolate with all the layers of different flavours? Like caramel coated with milk chocolate coated with dark chocolate... MAYBE THESE ARE THE ONIONS OF THE CHOCOLATE SOCIETY. You have to go through all the flavours, taste every bit of their varying personalities. Maybe these chocolate are the con-mans of Candyland or something cos they have so many sides to them!

And what about Reese's cups? Peanut butter and chocolate?! Are candy manufacturers trying to kill us? Letting us drown in pure bliss of perfect flavour combinations? Reese's cups are like sweet but not too sweet, savoury I'll say. I have a feeling they're the ones that epitomises the whole concept of sex. In candy sense, anyway.

And those candies that are mainly peanuts and sugar syrup holding them together? They're sweet, they're crunchy, they're savoury, they stick to your teeth and everywhere in between. Maybe they're the cheerleaders of the candy society. All preppy and sweet and stuff. Okay, maybe not. I can't imagine a stereotype cheerleader to be methaphorised into something crunchy.

Gummy bears, anyone? They're sticky but they're not too sweet. They're really colourful and you just can't resist eating them when you see them cos why? THEY'RE BEARS. IN GUMMY FORM. HOW CAN YOU RESIST. I have a feeling gummy bears are the people you just notice at a glance, but realise they're nothing much on the inside. They're just pretty and attractive, nothing too sweet about them. Maybe gummy bears will marry something made from chocolate. Like a chocolate bunny or something.

Okay, I'm done being weird aka I'm lazy now k bye thanks for your time

I don't like reading or watching anything from the 80's. Anything before that is fine, anything after is OK. But somehow I just don't like anything from the 80's. Maybe the 80's were just the decade of Nothing Interesting or something.

I mean, anything before that you have flowers and peace and flapper girls and Audrey Hepburn. In the 90's you have cartoons At Its Peak and in the 21st century you have the social network and Internet and shit.

Maybe you have to be born somewhere before that to really understand and appreciate the 80's, but I'm a 90's bitch so.

So I just finished reading Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell.


It was a good book, easy read. It was deep, but not pretentious deep. It was good. It was a book of first loves with cute couple moments, so it was good.

Oh fuck this the book is amazing go read it. It is books like this that makes me wanna read fiction again. I don't care how old I become, young adult fiction is gold.

I read a little of Eleanor and Park, but can't say I really like it that much haha I can barely go through half of the first chapter. Maybe cos I don't like it when there's an Asian lol.

But Fangirl wasn't like that. Her first love was drop dead gorgeous, or belong to any sports team. He was geeky, didn't get good grades and had a receding hairline. Yet he charms the fuck out of you, I swear.

Yes, yes I did another personality test. Yes, I am aware that it's not to be taken seriously one blablabla but I have a lot of time to kill okay?

You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You lead a leisurely and relaxed life. You would prefer to sit back and smell the roses than indulge in high energy activities. You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself.
You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions.

I'm starting to realise that my creativity is slowly being taken over by my left brain lol so I'm thinking back to my kiddo days, where everything was just straightforward kid logic.

1. Once I was at Popular and I asked my Mom if its OK to buy a Calvin and Hobbes comic book (I didn't even particularly like it, I just like the drawings lol I was too young to understand what Calvin was saying.) and she said no cos it costs 50 bucks. I was like, "So? It's just one piece of RM50 note!" lololol.
   
2. I was class monitor back when I was in Standard 4. Me and this asshole of a guy was assigned to put back the record books in this cupboard at the bilik guru. Because that fatso was so eager to go for recess, he dumped the books on the teacher's table and went away -_- dude I was like 10 years old and our class space in the cupboard was on the top shelf. I don't know if you know this, but record books are heavy. So I stuffed the books onto the top shelf and went away. After rehat I was called down and got threatened by a pregnant teacher LOL apparently when she opened the cupboard door the books fell on her heh. Whoops. She threatened to kill me by cutting my neck with the books and asked me why I didn't ask for help.
   
   Uh, hello? Are adults stupid or something lol as if any teacher will help students lol I don't know about you but you cannot count on women teachers on manual labour lol they're all so touchy
   
3. When I was like four years old, I peed outside of the toilet. There wasn't even anyone in the toilet, I just went on the rug in front of the door LOL don't ask, idek.
   
4. Whenever someone pissed me off (normally it's my brother), I'll write "I HATE ____" on my maid's room walls HAHAH it's still there.
   
5. Stickers were also known as "furniture enhancers"
   
6. In kindergarten, we weren't allowed to lock the toilet doors cos some boy locked himself in somehow. I remembered pee-ing and knowing boys were outside looking. 
   
   
7. I think I was part of the "weirdo clan" in kindergarten but I was a total wannabe lol I was desperate to be friends with this girl cos she was pretty but I don't think she really liked me lol. I was best friends with this girl who puked in class after snack time and always wore those temporary tattoos. The popular girls always gave me disgusted looks like WHY!?!?! (people still give me those looks hahahaha.....ha..) also, in the kindergarten class photo, I had like the biggest smile ever. I had decaying front teeth. okay so maybe that's why no one wanted to be friends lol.
   
8. Come to think of it, I never really had close friends until I was 9 years old .____. until that girl got mad at me after I said I copied her origami techniques. She was folding these lotuses and then I just followed her folding methods and she got mad at me and didn't talk to me for the rest of the year. Those were very lonely months lol.
   
9. I think the people who actually liked me when I was younger were all adults...and that's cos my skin was white and my eyes were brown. Sigh.
   
10. I AM STILL SUCH A WANNABE! I like to make people who are already happy with me to be even happier until I eventually drive them up the wall and they don't like me any more :( I am so sad haha maybe I'm destined to be alone
    
11. My favourite primary teacher used to be my Science teacher cos she was so flipping nice to us. She gives the kids who got 100% or highest mark those diaries with the key and lock. NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS DESPERATE FOR THAT KIND OF AFFECTION. But I never got it. You know why? Cos Guo Sheng always got the highest. But that teacher continued with her studies and we never saw her ever again lol
    
12. After that it was my Chinese/Music teacher. She reminded me of my Mom cos she was really fair too and had almost the same hair AND SHE SPEAKS ENGLISH!!!! Like, proper English lol. She liked me too cos I was the only kid she met who knows who and what Marry Poppins was lol and The Sound of Music. She took her music very seriously. But eventually she went away too -_-
    
13. I used to have a hot computer class teacher. Starting from him, I was forever computer class teacher's pet hehehehehehehe even after he left.
    
14. ANOTHER hot teacher came to our school when I was in Standard 6. I think he was on his practical and he had a girlfriend but hey I'm not blind and I was going through puberty okay!? PLUS HE SINGS. HE. SINGS. 
    
    
    

1. what is wrong with my appetite. All I ate was like two fish balls, one siew mai and a pao and I'm full already! Okay now that I typed it out it sounds normal to be full after so much lol okay nevermind.
2. UTAR still haven't sent me the offer letter lol like dude class starts tomorrow so am I in or not!? 

Hello guys, it's 2014! *proceeds to label first ___ of the year*

Anyway, it doesn't feel any different. I'm filled with dread cos I'm probably receiving the letter next week on whether or not I've successfully been admitted into UTAR's foundation in arts towards architecture. I am so not ready for this.

I mean, I have to find my own means of transport now! And since I still don't know how to drive (I'm lazy, like really lazy..even to register lol.) I'll have to rely on public transport and my Dad.

Guys. Do you know how many rape cases and robbery cases there has been in the past years around UTAR and the LRT stations!?!?!? I'm too young to die! I STILL HAVEN'T MET ANY GUAI LOUS YET.

Since I'm a superstitious dork who believes in numerology, here's what the person has to say about my birth date. Apparently I'm self centred, stubborn and easily influenced by my friends.

And apparently I'll thrive in somewhere overseas or in a foreign company. My heart was filled with hope when I heard that. Let's not jinx it.



But anyway, like any other stereotypical blogger, here are my wishes for 2014:

1. No one gets raped/becomes a rapist
2. If the unfortunate circumstance of someone getting raped, I hope that person has the sense to make a police report and go for a hospital check-up before going home so that the rapist can be tracked down. (this has been a public service announcement by me.)
3. University will be a good place with good people and good lecturers. 
4. My choice in course will ultimately lead me towards The Right Path.
5. No one contracts some sort of life-threatening disease cos that's horrible. You are young and you need to live.
6. None of my friends suddenly cracks, drops out of college and starts clubbing with the turds of life-forms. 
7. No one I know becomes a rapist/robber/murderer/commits suicide.