Sigh.
It's MONDAY tomorrow.
I feel like I'm wasting my holiday away. Not sure if going to DBKL is necessary or not because EVERYONE SAYS DIFFERENT THINGS AND PN. NORILA IS SO CONFUSING. It's so frustrating I want to DIE.
Iiiiish. If Sejarah kerja kursus didn't exist, THESE DAMNED WHITE HAIRS WON'T SPROUT OUT RIGHT.
My white hair is partially genetical, mind you. My brother has alot of white hair and he's just 21. You would've thought he had white highlights or something.
Anyways, I'm going to Michelle's tomorrow for Oral. Screw you Pn. Yap.
Pn. Yap might be the only English teacher I don't like. She is SO FUSSY! This cannot, that must be like that bla bla bla. She's one of those "prim and proper" teachers that don't know that "Geo" is short for 'Geografi'.
Aiiii yo.
I am not amused, children..not amused.
Anyways, SENI FOLIO. I don't know WHAT is going on in the school's mind (IF THEY HAD ANY IN THE FIRST PLACE) to cram ALL the folios into such a short period of time PLUS the teachers somehow think it's very amusing to give our tugasan LATE.
Well, HAR-DE-HAR-HAR. And won't give us compensation summore.
HE-HE-HE-HE. How HILARIOUS.
Jeez! First KH then SEJARAH then SENI and sooner or later, GEOGRAFI.
They want us to DIE ah? Summore they don't show mercy in terms of homework. WE'RE NOT FREAKING ROBOTS YOU KNOW.
Yeesh. Weekends and holidays aren't fun anymore because we have so much worries on our heads. The councellors should be for the TEACHERS, not the students because obviously, we know who is in need of the MENTAL HELP, right?
SO. Got all my results :/ OHMYGOSH I only got 4 As.
Yes, I can kiss my chances of getting straight As goodbye!
BM - 55% (I know right. Pn Yean marked it and I only got SIX marks for my ringkasan ==)
BI - 86% (died at novel)
Maths - 81% (subjective got a couple of careless mistakes)
Science - 77% (died at classification and graph)
Sejarah - 56%! (I DIDN'T STUDY AND I GOT A C! HAHAHAHAHAHAH I felt happy XD)
Geografi - 58% (OH EM GEE. One question FIVE times correction!!!!!!!!)
KH - 52% (my D. == I suck at KH ok? D: I'm an undomestic person.)
Chinese - 65% (I GOT A B!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!Quite rare ok :D)
P. Moral - .................73%
P. Sivik - ...................70%
P. Seni - NINTY FOUR BWAHAHAHAHAHAH!
LOL Seni got like this positif negatif thingy and both TWENTY MARKS. And the orchid TWENTY MARKS.EASY A, EASY A. If not ah, DIE for sure XDDD
So yes.
I am a dumbo!
My big brother is just a big hypocrite.
He like, LOVES the fish so much but when you tell him to clean the tank, he'll start with all these lame excuses.
Every time someone cleans the tank, he'll either be sleeping or using the computer. Come down, look a while, spit out a lame joke that not even God will laugh at, go up and do his own crap he does everyday upstairs.
Yeesh.
I was OK then my dad had this amazing idea of picking up my random book and looking into it. He says I'm wasting valuable paper for something useless like drawing.
I was drawing couples.
I don't see what's wrong with it. I LIKE drawing! I use to draw underneath our coffee table (evidence: the coffee table we're still using it. It's a board now cos my brothers broke the glass that used to be there. So I drew underneath it cos my brothers did it too) and papers, walls anything that my "mighty" magic marker could draw on. Even doors and chairs.
Yes I was a lifeless little pludgy girl.
Actually. I still am ha-ha. I don't draw on walls now (I know better now. our walls just got painted recently so, yeah) though. I draw on paper and instead of tearing them out and leaving them everywhere I keep them in books and leave them everywhere.
Yeah I can't get rid of the habit of leaving stuff around. I always have something left behind everywhere. It's like some sort of "imprint" I leave on the place.
Anyways, I was thinking of Paris so duh the first thing I think of when you say Paris is LOVE.
So I starting drawing couples lo. Yeesh.
Oh and note to people who don't know my family too well : my parents and brothers are INSANE and OVER-IMAGINATIVE when it comes to me and my relationship status. It gets annoying cos every single time I get a phone call or text someone and talk really long, they think I'm talking to my boyfriend OHMYGOD. Iish. For the record, I'm bloody single okay? You don't need to remind me about my lonely-ness every time I get a call OK?
I'm BORN to DIE a spinster cos I have so many boundaries everywhere. I blame it on the rapists out there. My parents think that I'm gonna get kidnapped or raped if I step out of the house with friends. Or my dad thinks I'm gonna hook up with someone and come back without my virginity.
PFFT. I have a BRAIN thankyouverymuch for your TRUST.
My dad says he'll let me go out once he starts to get the fact knocked into his head that I'm not a little kid anymore and I'm capable of delivering my knee to someone's balls instead of being frozen in time.
YEESH. The "trust" I tell you. It's killer.
Change topic.
What can I say about old people? I don't like them, they don't like me even if I DO like them.
Take my own family's share of old people for instance. They only take notice of you if your choice of career meets their expectations. Like for example, if I tell an old person I want to be a doctor and I'm studying medicine now, they'll start a rave about and sooner or later, your whole family knows that you want to be a doctor and immediately you're worshiped.
If you tell them, say, graphic designer, they'll just say "Oh. Okay. Okay." and an awkward silence comes and you know by the look in their eye that they disapprove of your choice and they are ITCHING to tell the other guy that they're grand daughter is studying something such "OFFENSIVE" like graphic designs. And sooner or later the whole family knows and no one will take you seriously anymore.
Like my brothers for instance. SUCH GOOD EXAMPLES.
My big brother was studying advertising and you don't see them raving about it for ages. They just like him cos he's the eldest and the eldest just gets all the attention in traditional Chinese families.
My second brother is currently studying Psychology and WOW does my family love it or what. My parents have this proud gleam in their eye whenever they tell other people that he's studying that. My uncles and aunties all LOVE him.
Me. I'm the youngest and therefore labelled as the BABY of the family. No one takes you seriously and when they do and ask you what you want to be when you grow up and you tell them you're thinking of becoming a wedding planner, they blow up in your face and start going all how accounting will be a better job and bla bla bla.
I told my family that I'm thinking of journalism now cos I want to work in a magazine and the change of LOOKS! GOD. My brother thinks it's good and at least it's better than my previous choice: a wedding planner. They started laughing like it's some silly dream a 5 year old would think of. And then they started saying being an undertaker would be better and higher paying.
GOD. My friends are soooo much more supportive. And adults wonder why teenagers are such a bother. ADULTS are the annoying ones with their over-optimistic expectations in you. They want a person with a mentality of a 85 year old, a build of a world-class swimmer but the looks of a 5 year old. My mom keeps insisting that I should wear more kiddy clothes HAHAHA. As if I'll let her do that.
Like I don't have enough problems already with people under-estimating me.
Yeah you can laugh now. I have a screwed-up life. I am a screw-up, always will be.
Yeah you can laugh.
If I get on the front cover of the newspaper is the day you will kick your butts and slap your hand on your forehead and say "OH GOD WAS I DUMB!"
Yeah but what are the chances of THAT happening hmm?
Here's a line for ya:
Unless you're achieved in life, no one would give a shit.
WHAT? It's true.
GOD. I hate my brother's lectures and talks and speeches that never end. I tell you, if he decides to write the speech down, it'll be as long as the Nile River.. AND his writing is the size of a baby ant!
When you see him, take my advice : DON'T read the newspaper, DON'T read any novel of any kind, DON'T text anyone, DON'T say hi to anyone, DON'T use the social network, DON'T EVEN TALK.
Because my brother has to be one of the most SENSITIVE and EXPRESSIVE people I have ever seen. He doesn't have a social life so if YOU have a social life, he gets all huff and puffy and starts declaring to poor planet Earth and also poor ezhen's ears how pathetic his social life is.
DUDE YOU BROUGHT IT TO YOURSELF, YOU KNOW IT'S A CONSEQUENCE SO JUST SHUT THAT MOUTH UP AND ACCEPT IT ALREADY.
If someone texts you, he starts going about how empty his phone inbox is.
If you go onto Facebook, he starts going all about how empty and pathetic people's lives are to waste their life away on social network.
If you read a novel, he starts going how useless it is, what a waste of money and time and why don't you go read something NON-fiction.
If you read the newspaper, he'll go all POLITICS-MODE.
If you talk to him, OHMYGOD.
He'll talk to you and you'll use up every single particle of patience is every single fibre of your being.
It's so annoying. IT'S SO ANNOYING!!!
And if you ask him to shut it, he'll go all how mean everyone is and no one in the whole WORLD will listen to him talk and how the wall is his best friend cos it's the only thing that absorbs what he says and his pillows listen too.
You have to agree it with him there, no one but the old people on my dad's side listens and actually discusses with him. That's why no old person talks to me cos ONE they're annoying and TWO they talk too much crap about ethics.
They expect you to have the brain of a 50 year old, the physicality of a world class athlete but the looks of a 15 year old.
Talk about perfectionists. They expect you to be the "model human". SO ANNOYING. I can't stand old people, mind you. They're just like little kids with weak bones. Urrgh -.-
My brother and old people only talk about careers, futures and BLA BLA BLA other shit.
Which is why I can only relate to people in my age group. Old people and little kids make me sick and uses up all my patience and ears.
ARGHHHHHHHHH.
I hate this moment right now.
Okay guys here's my pathetic attempt to keep this place alive and going. Here's TEN things that make me happy or giddy (hehehehehe)
Saw Adam Young posting this on his blog so yeah.
I'm pathetic. So sue me.
- The smell of roses, coffee, camomile, jasmine, fabric softener and everything morning-ish.
- anyone giving me something sweet to eat when I'm hungry (eg: CAKE. COOKIES P:)
- New sneakers and jeans (anything new actually.......)
- Listening to foreign people talk.
- Being talked to by a nice foreigner.
- a nice and sweet text from a loved one in a school morning (if only it will happen..only on my birthday :/ well at least some people bother :D)
- going to somewhere I never went to before or hardly go to (Like IKEA, Midvalley, the park...)
- having the whole world smiling to me :)
- looking at lomography :O
- CHOCOLATES TO MYSELF!
Okay. Like they say, everything has a negative side to things. Here's the 10 things that I HATE HATE HATE.
- Liars who know they're lying and don't care about it.
- Cheaters.
- People who THINK they know what I'm thinking but they don't and they're really stubborn with it.
- Hot-heads.
- Getting yelled at for no good reason.
- Having to wait for someone when you're really in a rush.
- Studying for exams.
- not getting what I want.
- LECTURES D:<>
- Being super super SUPER hungry and there's nothing to EAT!!!!!
So yeah. I get annoyed easily. Oh and I just found out that I insult random people when I'm hungry LOL
I'm so weird.
LOL I'm sorry I don't blog much now cos I have this thing called INTERVENSI. Never heard of it? LUCKY YOU! You might be one of those lucky idiots who don't have to go through it cos it's so STUPID. AND I'm one of "the chosen ones" that got into PCC -.- what the hell right I'm no pelajar cemerlang, I'm a pelajar UN-cemerlang. I might be one of the most laziest beings that have ever walked this planet.
Haha anyways Maths paper had all those equations on the front page and I'm all "YESS!!!!!!!!" LOL
Didn't expect that to be there OK? WHAT EXAM IS IT WHEN YOU PRACTICALLY GIVE US THE ANSWERS FOR THE HARD STUFF??? If only it happens in Science and Geografi and Sejarah HAHA fat chance. I checked Twitter today for updates and BiHui said someone passed out in her maths test and I was all "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA EPIC!! THAT'LL TEACH THE MINISTRY!"
LOL anyways Verinia came over today to use my wireless but somehow the wireless was crap so she couldn't use and she was all "My life. Screwed. Shit. Urgh. Internet. No. Two. Weeks. Suck."
LOL I know right XD anyways we started watching BEAST videos on her lappie and OHMYGOSHHILARIOUSMUCH? I always laugh till my lungs wilt with her.
OH AND I DARE MENTION MICHELLE DID SOMETHING TOTALLY HILARIOUS ON WEDNESDAY AHAHAHHAHA I laughed really hard that day too :)
Okay. LOL We were really high dunno why we just were ..anyways we were in the toilet checking the new doors out (yes, we were THAT drunk) and she stomped out and raised her arm and made this sign and she didn't see the cleaning lady pass by and she gave her this "what-the-hell-okay-exams-are-scary-just-look-at-HER!" LOLOLOLOL I was in the toilet and I started screaming "PENGAKAPS IF YOU CAN HEAR ME! MICHELLE JUST DID SOMETHING EMBARASSING!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA...." LOL then we collapsed to the floor laughing the shit out of us. I don't know if they heard us though LOL then we went to outside Dewan there near the pengakaps and we saw this girl that looked like Melissa from the back and we started screaming her name until the teacher looked at us and we realised that the girl wasn't Melissa AHHAHAHAHAH.
We are so weird :)
Anyways for English Society we have this sketch thingy where we have to act out all these stuff? Yeah our group got America's Next Top Model? I'm Nigel Barker LOL I'M A BALD MAN WHO TAKES PHOTOGRAPHS! Debbie's Tyra Banks LOL
I just thought of something.
Do I have to do this fake english accent for the Nigel Barker? .............
My life now is seriously SCREWED. Wake up at FREAKING 5 IN THE MORNING every-single-day. Lucky people get to wake up at SIX but NOOOO. Auntie JUST HAS TO come at 6 am to fetch me.
On Mondays I have to rush cos directly after I come back from school, I only have 30 minutes of so called "freedom" till tuition cos Rahman just HAS TO give kelas tambahan every week. Come back at 8am and only have an hour of another so called "freedom" till bed time (yes, I have a bedtime. I don't like to only sleep for 5 hours thankyouverymuch. It makes me cranky in the morning).
Tuesdays are better cos there's no tuition.
Wednesdays are abit better than Mondays cos tuition starts at 6 so at least I have TWO hours. PLUS tuition only lasts for ONE HOUR! (One hour of tuition is just sheer BLISS.)
Thursdays are also ABIT better cos no koko but tuition starts at 5 cos Rahman teaches me Geografi too so kelas tambahan one hour ==
THANK.
GOD.
FOR.
FRIDAYS.
Fridays is my favourite day in the week. Good things happen on Friday :) PLUS school ends at 12.30 pm and NO TUITION!!!!!
And now because of friggin' intervensi I have to study = no free time at all to update ANYTHING so my blog is entering the list of most boring-est blogs in the history of blog-kind.
Not my fault.
Today when I was doing Form 2 Geografi (I was doing the Penilaian Akhir Tahun thingy for Form 2), I asked my dad where was Africa and he yelled "THAT ONE YOU ALSO DON'T KNOW AH??"
Like HURT MUCH?!!? NO ONE IS SO FREE LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT THE WORLD MAP EVERY DAY OKAY. My schedule is SO TIGHT I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO STAND A LOOK AT SOME STUPID MAP THAT WON'T BE A USE UNLESS I WANT TO BE A FREAKING NOMAD!!!
Yeesh. Why can't parents use those KIND AND CALMING WORDS to ask you to study? At least THAT makes studying sound better. NOOOO. MY parents yell and thus making studying for me a BURDEN OF MY LIFE!!!
Ah well. I guess no one can have the patience of a school counselor.
No one's perfect.
Mom registered me into tuition today :( good bye freedom. Have to eat early dinners and sleep early. Not to mention sit alone!!
Aiih. Agony of life XD
My scab is peeling off so my mom says that it's good in a sense. Means it's gonna heal in a couple of days or so.
Scabs peel off. It's normal. All I have to do now is to resist from scratching it and peeling the scab off. My fingers must have the will power of erm..of something with a lot of will power.
LOL I'm being blur and I'm scared that my scab will peel off because of something and my parents aren't here cos they're going to a wedding dinner...
OMG I just checked my ABRASION (yes, I found out what it was. It's a second degree abrasion) and I just WISH it would heal RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!
Urrrghhh
just had a haircut and MAN! It's short.
Not the whole head. Just the bangs. IT'S NOW SITTING ON MY EYELASHES.
Yup. But at least long enough to be side-swepped.
IF SHORTER AH, I'LL EXPLODE ON THE SPOT.
Sighs.
OH THE AGOOONNYYYY. And Dad says it's not short enough. HIS FRINGE IS LONGER THAN MINE OK!
Sighs.
Not the whole head. Just the bangs. IT'S NOW SITTING ON MY EYELASHES.
Yup. But at least long enough to be side-swepped.
IF SHORTER AH, I'LL EXPLODE ON THE SPOT.
Sighs.
OH THE AGOOONNYYYY. And Dad says it's not short enough. HIS FRINGE IS LONGER THAN MINE OK!
Sighs.