Never Have I Ever.
Can you position yourself in the shoes of another? Can you relive what they had gone through? Can you say you know it all when you don't? You can try, but you can't really succeed.
Do you see people lie to your face? Do you see people trying to tip toe around you so they don't have to lie and face your feelings? You do. Admit it, it happened to you at some point of life. But you don't really do anything. You don't confront them about it, you don't talk to anyone about it. You just let it stay in your mind, accumulating by the days. And when they get caught, a small part of you smiles.
Do people get mad at you for no good reason you can think of? Do you have a pound of chocolate in the back of your closet for sad occasions? Do you cry yourself to sleep at night because you don't know what you did wrong? Did you ever feel pressured to the point where you wouldn't care if someone pointed a gun to your temple?
Do you have moments when you just sit down and look around you and realise you don't know who's fake or who's real? Do you sometimes doubt your friends, your family, your teachers, everyone around you? Do you feel like your life is a huge music video of fucked up moments, where the happy moments are hidden under rocks and the nightmares come out like ghosts to haunt you wherever you went.
Have you ever gotten the first A in the subject you never thought you could? Have you ever had pride bubble inside of you when teachers smile at you in approval? Have you ever felt unexplainable feelings when you make your parents proud of you? Do you feel relief when your parents let you go out with your friends, and agree to drive you there?
Have you ever had a really good laugh, and end up having a stomach ache? Have you ever experienced pain, but in a good way? Have you ever had butterflies erupt in your stomach, and your heart starts beating really fast when your crush looks your way and smiles? Have you ever felt the happiness of approval by your peers?
Have you ever woke up 5 minutes late, but the day just gets better? Have you ever looked at the sky and think about the possibilities of life? Have you ever saw miracles happen when you think you're down? Have you ever rolled around all night, but it's all good because you only thought of happy things. Have you ever smiled at random texts people send over to you, because it means someone is thinking about you. Have you ever had superstitious moments when your eyelashes fall and it means someone misses you?
Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and for once, everything is just alright?
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