I don't know what happened this past week. Am I getting more sensitive, or are my friends just getting less sensitive? What is this week called, retaliate to ezhen's dreams week? Does it make people feel happy that they shoot me down?!

Not naming anyone here, but it'll be pretty fucking obvious who it is lol just let me not care about it for about 2 weeks okay? You feel uncomfortable about the post, tell me I delete it. But for now, just let me do what I do.

Whenever I wanna be happy about my English marks, they'll go all "oh cos our teacher is so much more strict than yours."

So I'm like, I let your teacher see my essays and she likes them. And they say its cos she wants to give a good impression on me.


The temptation to let her mark my paper runs through my veins. It's not like my teacher isn't strict at all. Last year was acceptable since my teacher wasn't SPM-qualified but this year she fucking is okay and I can get fucking better.

And then whenever I say the literature part is easy, they give me the Look that says don't-say-what-you-don't-know and tell me it's different for them cos their teacher doesn't accept anything and it's suddenly like a vortex of exaggeration on what she wants.

And okay, so you guys have it really bad. Yeah, my A for English in your class will probably qualify for a C. Yeah, my grades forever lower, my marks forever unworthy, my results forever worse. You all forever fucking better at everything. Fine fuckety fine.


Let's just say that if I wasn't worthy enough for your teacher, she wouldn't ask me to write for the magazine.